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Saturday, April 26, 2008

zzz.. i realise tt i can only post once a week.

and thats so damn sad=(

oh, btw the XY halfblind adventure, eh, cant be bothered to continue liao..
so.. let me summarise bah:
XY went around nj w/o specs for one whole day, occassionally squinting at odd and blur figures who randomly waved at her, then turn out to realise that those ppl might be her fwens.
And since she cant see, during napha test sbj, there was not pressure on her!!
so she anyhow jump!! and got 161... supposed to be damn happy de.. BUT its not silver so must keep on jumping..
which she did.. and got to jump 130 in the end..-_-
(exponential graph: the more she jumps the shorter the distance)

stoopit..-__=

haix. yup, but overall it was a fun experience
because since i cant see others clearly, somehow i dont feel that others can see me clearly too HAHAHA(okay i know tt's dumb but i wasnt so concern with how others look at me tt day!)

haha=)

OKAY, let's not talk about last week's stuff...
JUST NOW, twin and i had a TWINS' OUTING!!!~~~

(zzz.. im quite pissed actually because com refused to connect with my phone and i cant upload the goofy pics we took.. 38 pictures!!)

haha~
so, this morning, i went for bio spa debrief..
and muscularly, the president(jialiu) and i(the vice-pres-president)
managed to go to the wrong LT...

then after some
(wait.. interuption)

( at this point of time, xy is being interupted by the msn window of yawntwin AND miraculously, MY PHONE SUDDENLY GOT CONNECTED WITH THE COM!!! omgomgomgosh~)

(continue)
so, after some session of drawing random things during bio spa debrief,
i went to meet yawn at ulu bukit gombak!

she SAID she was going to wear her multicolor pe tee BUT i could not spot her..
why leh?
cuz she lie to muah=( and wore elephant skin.. lOL.
two elephants (not fat)

lol.

and due to my growling stomach, we headed to the nearby hawker centre to buy lunch.
where i got cheated=(

my ramen wasnt nice at all and it cost 50 cents more than yawns!!
=(

"cuz lu wei pai gu ramen have more alphabets than jiao zi ramen mah.."
exclaimed yawn..

which led to a series of heated argument and we finally decided tt " jia liao(add ingredients)" was the cheapest, at a price of 1 dollar only!

then we went straight to sedans to enjoy the aircon..
man, it was really hot la~

and my ramen is not nice=(

(okay, shall stop complaining)

anyway, yawn u still owe me one dollar hor..
=)

yupyup
haix, i really miss chatting with yawn~
its like we were back to sec 3 n 4 la..
so carefree and fwanny~

really like talking to yawn cuz can talk about almost anything and everything=)
felt like i've put down a burden after talking to her..
ahaix.. cant describe this feeling.. but its really warm and nice..

and part of me actually felt sad because there's no way we can go bac to sec 3 or 4 again..

i miss 4E.. i miss yawn n SPA...

=(

(slap slap)

no depression today..

yup.. and YAWN upgraded her phone to 1GB finally!!
so i sent her half of my songs=D
and we took a lot of pic in the toilet!!!
we even took one with the kpo auntie hovering ard worx~

hahaha..
its been long since i was so happy la..

so, can try to show u some photos..

hang on..






crap. my phone cannot connect again!
=(((((((((
thats all yawn uploaded..
but if u are really interested to see more..
stay tune to either moi blog OR yawn's blog

looking forward to our next TWINS outing~~

p.s red pants really sux.. seems so obscene lo..

nananana~ happy day oh~ happy night~


SUPER NUMBER ONE TWIN.

Friday, April 18, 2008

the XY adventures:
(paiseh, not muscleman lee adventures in chem lab)

A DAY WITHOUT SPECS a.k.a HALFBLIND

ONE fine morning, my spec broke.
actually, it was this morning...

at first, my dad suggested ponning sch all tgt
but my mum insisted i go to sch..
and that's the beginning of my journey to ALL DAY W/O SPECS

sian.

the first challenge of the day was.. boarding the bus.
apparently i cant really see the bus numbers, even when i stood particularly close to the road.

sian, and so i had to depend of grey shadows moving around to determine the bus.
lol..

then came chem prac..
i feel like a muscleman la.
no specs and doing some thiosulphate potassium iodate potassium iodide sulphuric acid titration....
managed to knocked down a glass of KI without getting the teacher's attention.
gd.

and i realise someone is more muscular than me!!
VVP!! vanessa!

while washing her burette with thiosuplhate solution, she accidently/purposely swung her buretter across... dripping thiosulphate solution into all my flasks of KI, KIO3, H2SO4 ..etc..

so pro!

and we ended up laughing muscularly...


speaking abt the prac, forgot to hand in the chem prac to WWong..
-_-

anyway, maths lecture was interesting..
because i can see!
somehow...

LOL. the nice breakvoice woman drew a large graph
and said: i think u cant see
so she bold it..
and i can really see it leh!

then she said: this is not good..

SO, she trace over the graph all over again, in green and red to differentiate the transformed and old graph.
wahh.. my jiu xing..

lalaal~

then suddenly, my phone vibrated damn loud..
but i think she nvr hear la..

cuz she suddenly/randomly said to a student in front of her: i cant hear..

so i was like : gd, u cant hear.. HAHAHA

ok, lame.

oh, then went for econs...
(to be continued.. need to offline liao=()

the great adventures of halfblind XY..

Thursday, April 17, 2008

One fine day, garfield the Vinnie was slacking in bio class and wrote down some lyrics on a piece of paper for me.

It was three songs she wrote down(the songs are not written/composed by her.lol)
but it was this one tt captured my attention.


==Concrete Angel==
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late


A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

====================================

wah.. damn saddist.
but i like it.. somehow.

maybe im becoming saddist (again)
haix.

*shakes head*

nope, im not a saddist..
and i shall not be depressed.

after so many days in NJ,
i understood that happiness is not what others see u as.

Of course,
branded goods are representation of luxury, ppl who bore them are looked upon by others,
admired, envied by others.

same goes to branded educational instituites.
yea, how many times have we looked at a student from, say, one of the top sec sch or jc and give such an exclaimation: " this child is a prodigy. He/she is so lucky to be able to attend such a good sch"
we envy them for being intelligent/(maybe) dilligent etc...
( i dont know if ppl do admire others for being hardworking. personally, sometimes i do. esp when i have no motivation to do hw)

but how do the students feel?

of course, admiration and envy from others make ppl feel superior.
but that sense of happiness is short-lived.

i realise how others perceive ur live will nvr bring upon true happiness.
Ppl may envy your wealth..
yea, u can say: my life must be better than theirs..etc..

but if a person is living their life for the sake of other's perception,
its a misery.

envy from others can nvr make a person truly happy.

what makes a person truly happy?

im still finding the answer.

because i realise i've lost touch with the word " happiness" for a very long time.






haix.

i really do miss 4E a lot.
im not saying NJ is a very good sch or what..
but being in NJ doesnt make me feel happy.
Being with 4E does.

being with yawn.. ah mu.. ham.. ah ma.. and SPA..
=(

i've just visited ham's blog.
she made me realise tt my life is not dead.
there are still impt ppl in my life tt needs me and i need them too..

haix.

Sunday, April 06, 2008

omgosh la.

i think im going to puke blood..
im really going to.

zzz..
accidentally saved chem VA on a temp file now cant find
have to redo..


somemore still got PI to pia.

dye liao..


=_=

Saturday, April 05, 2008

"我找不到 我到不了　你所谓的将来的美好"　
--[到不了]

"怎么习惯失去你的未来"
--[终于明白]

"'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place"
--[Bubbly]

"怎么留住渐渐消失的云彩"
--[终于明白]

"这一趟华丽的冒险没有真实的你陪我走"
--[趟华丽的冒险]


"and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever"
--[Graduation]


"Outside it's now raining.
And tears are falling from my eyes."
--[Big Big World]

"终于明白 该放手."
--[终于明白]

"说不清对你承诺过的一切 还有多少没有实现过"
--[趟华丽的冒险]


"Why did it have to happen ?"
--[Big Big World]


"如果有一天　我回到从前
回到最原始的我　你是否会觉得我不错"


"不愿放开手 不愿让你走 疯狂的梦没有了你还有什么用"
--[趟华丽的冒险]

"看你和我的回忆 跟我擦肩而过"
--[告诉我]


"when we look back now
will our jokes still be funny?
will we still remember everything we learned in school?
still be trying to break every single rule?"
--[Graduation]



"你的改变太冷漠 我没有勇气大声地说"
--[告诉我]



"不愿放开手 不愿让你走"
--[趟华丽的冒险]



"Why did it all have to end ?"
--[Big Big World]

"i keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
keep on thinking it's a time to fly"
--[Graduation]

"不愿眼睁睁的看你走出我的生活"
--[趟华丽的冒险]

"如果有一天　我离你遥远
不能再和你相约　你是否会发觉我已经说再见"




"我什麽都不要 知不知道 若你懂我 这一秒"
--[到不了]　

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

whew..

been busy pia-ing going-to-be-overdued hw
due to too much slacking during the hols
and enrichment week AND weekends..

went to collect O lvl cert with HAM, MuscularJIALIU, and etc..
Actually i wanted to meet up with yawn and have dinner with her or sth
but...
her mum suddenly disagreed.
haix.

mums..

felt like it's been ages since we last chat..

anyway, so ham and i went to vivo..
and... saw a stupid pic depicting some words" where fashion comes alive"
crap. and we took the pic down and posted it on SML haha..
cant believe i was so lame.

all ham's fault.
haha...

then on saturday,
shen, bei and i decided to visit acjc's funo-rama~
HAHAHA..
its was sweltering hot lah..
PLUS.. th price of the food and drinks and games are murderously high.
hello, three dollars for a bowl of snow flakes??(okay la, the ice kachang is nice but with only a sprinkle of lemonade and they can actually charge ppl 3 bucks??)

nvm. my main purpose was to visit ham and ah ma and ah mu(but din get to se ah mu la)

haix..

really miss 4E a lot leh=(
miss all the lame jokes,
the slacking,
the hecking of hw...

and the chit chatting at the back of the classroom.

geez,
im really bad at adapting to changes i guess..
but seriously, i really dont feel that my current class is like a class at all.

10 ppl/places/things i missed the most:
mr soh.
rv
yawn
ham
ah mu
ah ma
s.p.a
4E
sml times(paper)
laughter..

oh, and all the teachers..

maybe evonne should be glad instead of sad u know...

haix,
i dunno how to say it but i feel we drifting away
maybe its my illusion
but it feels like you no longer care much anymore.
=(